Good Evening,
It has been awhile since I have posted to my blog. I apologize to myself and everyone else about that. I have been keeping pretty busy with my job, family and new men in my life.
There are two guys that I am currently dating. The first one is 5 yrs older than myself and is originally from Eugene Oregon. He has been living down here for 20 yrs now. He has two kids, a girl 10 yrs old and a son 15 yrs old. Couldn’t be more perfect with my brood :o) I really enjoy my time with him and there is definitely chemistry between us. We have a lot of the same interests and experiences and tastes. We are both open to try new things out. There’s strength about him that I am really drawn to and how he handles me… it just adds to the appeal.
The other one is 10 yrs older than myself and has an 18 yr old son. He is a mechanic and plays acoustic guitar and sings since junior high. Just like my dad. He is a very nice guy and I enjoy our times together and he can be quite the romantic. I don’t feel the chemistry there though. The second day of knowing him, he bought me roses for my birthday; he has played his guitar and sang me a song and sent it to my phone. He took me out of town on a day trip to places that I had not seen before; that was really wonderful.
I want to figure out if I can fall in love with one without the initial chemistry. If I remove the physical piece out of the equation in the beginning…will it help me to get out of my own way and find real love?
I’m leaning towards the Oregon guy. At this point it is obviously too early to make such decisions about who I will choose. There are no commitments, so why do I feel guilty about seeing both? I don’t want to choose one and have it end up a dud and then I screwed up a possible chance with the other.
Does anyone have thoughts about this quandary I have myself in?
Peace and Love to you all!
Alexa
Hello Alexa, I stumbled upon your site coincidentally searching "goddess journey" so I stayed and read your posts, and found myself inspired by your journey. And am compelled to say to you that you are beautiful and Thayer you do not need any Man's approval, sure it's nice to meet good men but please remember that your first priority is yourself, to be attractive to yourself, to accept yourself, to love yourself and taking care of our body and being healthy is a very important requisite to love and care for ourselves and we should keep at it every single day but we also have to remember to love and accept all of the parts of us even our mind and thoughts and actions and mistakes, so we need to care for mind, body, and soul. And, soon as you are admiring and loving yourself and reflection in the mirror you will find your dream man waiting to reflect the beauty that is in you and that you already see back to you. With much love to you, I pray that you are free from all suffering, may you always be happy.
ReplyDeletePs your picture is very nice, I mean the current one . Drop the hurt that you have carried since childhood, stop reinforcing the pain that others caused you and be nice tou yourself. Coincidentally, I am 41 yrs and am seeing you in me :-). Thank you for reminding me to love my self.
Pss sorry for the loooong sentences ;-))
Alexa, you don't need to publish the comment, if you wish, I just wanted to write you really. Best of luck!!
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