Tonight my thoughts are racing, but the loudest one is my non-comprehension on how I have not lost any more weight. When I tell you that I have completely changed what I put in my body and how much I put in my body...that is an understatement. I think about 95% of what is going in my body is organic and completely healthy. I am listening to my body and when it says,"hey I'm good now" I stop. I no longer worry about cleaning off my plate like my parents drilled into our heads when we were kids. I no longer worry about wasting or getting a bang out of each dollar spent.
I was in Walmart tonight to pick up another large bag of frozen blueberries with no sugar and of course picked up a few other things. I can't tell you how many things I walked away from because I did not see the organic symbol on it. Even if it is "diet food". I don't touch anything with fake sugar chemicals in it either. And I average about 1700 calories a day. For my weight...that is really good. Lance Armstrong's site "LiveStrong" says I should be eating 2000 calories. Gads!
But I still have not lost any other weight other than my initial 20 lbs. I saw my mom in Yuma yesterday and she said she could see my stomach actually disappearing and that my face is slimming down...God/dess Bless her! But it's so enormous that I am not seeing it yet. And there are mirrors everywhere...home and work bathrooms and those blessed elevators in my bldg and parking garage. OH! and the darned windows in all the bldgs in downtown Phoenix! COMPLETE TORTURE!
My internal critic is being a heavy right now...pardon the pun.
Now looking at the positives...
- My blood sugar levels have been perfect (anywhere from 103 to 120) and that was with me missing my diabetic pill last night. I am actually excited about having my next A1c done.
- I am not craving baked goods, candies or ice cream. I actually have not had any cravings at all for the bad stuff....i.e. processed chemicalized stuff...if that's a word. LOL!
- I am listening to my body and when it says I am done...I am done.
- I am not self-sabotaging myself by blowing my diet and making excuses and I will start again tomorrow...that's not happening.
- I am saying my self affirming mantras every day if not twice a day.
- I have been religious about my medications and making sure I have vitamins in my body every day.
- I am front and center for my sis-in-law's weekly blog session called Chunky Dunkers (my brother named it). We get together on her blog and tell each other of our accomplishments no matter how small or big, our defeats..what worked for us and what didn't. We show up to support and love each other through our lifestyle changing journeys.
I so wish this was not a snail pace process. I want to be healthy, happy, in good shape and with a man,my champion loving me and being there for me through the good and the bad.
See...I have a lot of work to do for my well being and my kids!
I will leave it at this tonight. I will be back again tomorrow night.
Much peace and love to you all!
Alexa
Sis,
ReplyDeleteI had a super-long comment but it crapped out and now it is gone!! Keep up the great work sis! I got off of my plateau when I started eating all of my recommended calories! I know it sounds counter-intuitive, but it really worked! You are asking so much more from your body, but now feeding it enough to keep going. Kind of like your car running out of gas, even though you are putting premium gas in the tank!! Give it a try for a week, and if nothing then go back to 1700. I am sure you can do it!!
Also, what are your daily mantras? I would love to be able to maybe adopt or adapt them for myself!!! Thank you, sis!!
Go CHUNKY DUNKERS!!! ;-) http://christinaville.wordpress.com/
Love, Love, Love,
Christina