Rejected...again!

Good Afternoon,

I don't know about y'all but I detest being rejected. Two days ago I went to look at a 4B/2B house in a older and nice part of Phoenix. The house had the carpets and tile completely replaced and it was freshly painted with an ecru color. So no nasty hospital white. It had a gigantic fenced in backyard and a huge laundry room. I ran to the bank to get the deposit and background check monies and was on my way.....or so I thought. Then I get a call yesterday saying that they still needed a few things from me that I had not submitted, but already looking at my two leases that I broke when I was in AZ last (one from being laid off and the other...well you know...domestic situation.) that they did not think the owner would approve it. But none-the-less we continued. Then this afternoon she called and said they sent what I gave already to the owner who turned it down right away and went with another family.  BUM BUM BUMMMMMMMM!!!! So money orders are being mailed back to me and I feel horrible.

I know rejection is just part of life and let's face it...it wasn't meant to be, but I was so excited about this big house for my kids, mom, Brie and myself.

I don't know why this situation brought up something from my past while sitting here typing this blog, but alas it did.

My sister, Taj and I were in a car accident outside of Tustin base in California when we were 17 yrs old. A semi pulled out from a dirt road in front of my sister when she's going 55mph...she slammed on her brakes, the car did a 180 right into a ditch...on my side. The right side of my body hit the inside of my door at impact.  Well people of course stopped to help...not the trucker...he took off. They called our poor excuse of a father at the time from work and he came right over.  When he arrived on the scene I went up to him for comfort and with my right arm useless. It wasn't moving from the impact of me slamming into the car door. Do you know that S.O.B. pushed me to the side and went to my sister to comfort her?!  Don't get me wrong...Tajie needed that too, but HELLO!!! I did too and had an arm that wasn't functioning.

Please let it be known that I harbor no ill feelings towards my sister. It was his action, not her's. I LOVE LOVE LOVE my sister and always will. Hence me choosing to stay with my mom, sis and bro!

I felt that rejection from him instantly and it has been deeply ingrained in my soul. So even today, though none of us kids have anything to do with him and he is but a distant memory...that particular even stays hidden deep in me until something stirs it up.

So back to house hunting....which I hate as much as job hunting! Onward and upward.

Peace and love to you all,

Alexa